when my friends from the cram school found out what i was well more found out who i was related to and what power i had they were pretty upset and i get it because the fire i got from my real father was something that caused a huge event called blue night when yukio and i were born a lot of people died including people in their families
i thought they were gonna stay mad forever and that was it right? but then they came and rescued me! and when i tried to tell them i was gonna do everything i could not be like satan suguro said that wasnt why he pissed "was i the only one who thought we were friends" is what he said to me
so yeah i have faith in them way more than i have in myself but it makes me feel better about all my mistakes in the past
I get it! I really do. 8ut may8e work on 8eing less of a depressive sad sack. You have told me a lot a8out your life, and the shit you've 8een through, and I'm not saying it's not heavy, 8ut if you already have friends who care a8out you this much, what exactly are you risking 8y putting yourself out there?
which part the 'i didn't have friends until i was 15 and im a social mess' part the 'shiemi absolutely destroyed me' part or the 'my brother is a giant asshole' part?
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png){kind=small}
no subject
getting better about that
when my friends from the cram school found out what i was
well more found out who i was related to
and what power i had
they were pretty upset and i get it because the fire i got from my real father was something that caused a huge event called blue night when yukio and i were born
a lot of people died including people in their families
i thought they were gonna stay mad forever and that was it right?
but then they came and rescued me!
and when i tried to tell them i was gonna do everything i could not be like satan
suguro said that wasnt why he pissed
"was i the only one who thought we were friends" is what he said to me
so yeah
i have faith in them
way more than i have in myself but it makes me feel better about all my mistakes in the past
no subject
You are really lucky. I hope you know that.
no subject
i do
i wouldnt be here at all if not for them
i dunno if ill ever be able to show them all how much they mean to me but its a lot
i mean i care about my friends here too but shit i wouldnt have you all if not for them yknow?
no subject
I really do.
8ut may8e work on 8eing less of a depressive sad sack.
You have told me a lot a8out your life, and the shit you've 8een through, and I'm not saying it's not heavy,
8ut if you already have friends who care a8out you this much, what exactly are you risking 8y putting yourself out there?
no subject
jk
im trying there was just a lot of shit going on and its hard not to worry about whats gonna happen when i go back
i know im not really risking anything if i do but it doesnt stop me from being nervous about it
no subject
Honestly, you want to know my real advice?
Get over it.
[ well, it's straightforward, at least. ]
no subject
the 'i didn't have friends until i was 15 and im a social mess' part
the 'shiemi absolutely destroyed me' part
or the 'my brother is a giant asshole' part?
actually forget the last one im already oer that