Sorry, 8ut it is incredi8ly funny. I don't make the rules! Aw, you do? That's cute. I'm sorry I didn't then! It was .... complic8ed, when I got 8ack, as the last thing that happened to me 8efore I got here was getting dumped 8y my girlfriend. ::::( 8ut my point was that you're not totally unlikea8le, dummy. Have a little more self-confidence. I am not! Who is Kohaku to you, then?
Haha. Yeah, that's exactly what the deal was. It's ok, though. It's gotten easier to deal with, with time. Anyway, who else has told you this, exactly?? Also, lol. What's with the question mark! Are you telling me you aren't sure what she is to you?
a lot of people people fucking hated me and were terrified of me for most of my life not knowing i was actually a demon and not being in control of my own strength didnt help
and the ? was there because im wondering why youre asking
Omg, I know, you told me! 8ut it's different here, right? Honestly I was asking to try and get a rise out of you, 8ut you are shockingly 8oring to tease. If there's really nothing there I'm not gonna hassle you a8out it.
Rin.... I am sorry. I know what it's like to struggle with that kind of thing. Actually, that's another one of the reasons why I haven't pursued anyone here myself, to 8e honest.
[It was easier to hide before the whole thing with Shiemi. Not the he blames her; she had her reasons and he respects that, even if it is somewhat... soul crushing.]
its fine dont worry about it seriously if anything happens here ill just be nicely surprised i guess?
I kind of feel the same at this point. 8ut........ I will give you the same advice I think a friend would give to me. Which is to have faith in the people that care a8out you. They're making that choice, you know? And they're pro8a8ly making it 8ecause of who you are, not despite it.
when my friends from the cram school found out what i was well more found out who i was related to and what power i had they were pretty upset and i get it because the fire i got from my real father was something that caused a huge event called blue night when yukio and i were born a lot of people died including people in their families
i thought they were gonna stay mad forever and that was it right? but then they came and rescued me! and when i tried to tell them i was gonna do everything i could not be like satan suguro said that wasnt why he pissed "was i the only one who thought we were friends" is what he said to me
so yeah i have faith in them way more than i have in myself but it makes me feel better about all my mistakes in the past
I get it! I really do. 8ut may8e work on 8eing less of a depressive sad sack. You have told me a lot a8out your life, and the shit you've 8een through, and I'm not saying it's not heavy, 8ut if you already have friends who care a8out you this much, what exactly are you risking 8y putting yourself out there?
which part the 'i didn't have friends until i was 15 and im a social mess' part the 'shiemi absolutely destroyed me' part or the 'my brother is a giant asshole' part?
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Date: 2019-01-10 03:38 am (UTC)wait what you did? damn i wish you woulda said something
and now youre the one telling lies
(no subject)
Date: 2019-01-10 03:49 am (UTC)Aw, you do? That's cute. I'm sorry I didn't then! It was .... complic8ed, when I got 8ack, as the last thing that happened to me 8efore I got here was getting dumped 8y my girlfriend. ::::(
8ut my point was that you're not totally unlikea8le, dummy. Have a little more self-confidence.
I am not! Who is Kohaku to you, then?
(no subject)
Date: 2019-01-10 04:04 am (UTC)i get it tho i wouldn't probably feel up to dating after that even if i did like someone
and no why do people keep telling me that god i'm fine i dont need any more than i have
[That is a lie.]
a
friend?
(no subject)
Date: 2019-01-10 04:16 am (UTC)It's ok, though. It's gotten easier to deal with, with time.
Anyway, who else has told you this, exactly??
Also, lol. What's with the question mark! Are you telling me you aren't sure what she is to you?
(no subject)
Date: 2019-01-11 06:58 am (UTC)people fucking hated me and were terrified of me for most of my life
not knowing i was actually a demon and not being in control of my own strength didnt help
and the ? was there because im wondering why youre asking
(no subject)
Date: 2019-01-11 08:11 am (UTC)8ut it's different here, right?
Honestly I was asking to try and get a rise out of you, 8ut you are shockingly 8oring to tease.
If there's really nothing there I'm not gonna hassle you a8out it.
(no subject)
Date: 2019-01-11 08:22 am (UTC)you didnt figure that out the last time you tried?
shes my friend and whoever is saying shes more than that is probably making shit up
and
yeah
its different here but that doesnt change how i feel about myself
(no subject)
Date: 2019-01-11 08:32 am (UTC)Rin....
I am sorry.
I know what it's like to struggle with that kind of thing.
Actually, that's another one of the reasons why I haven't pursued anyone here myself, to 8e honest.
(no subject)
Date: 2019-01-12 04:40 am (UTC)its fine dont worry about it
seriously if anything happens here ill just be
nicely surprised i guess?
but im not banking on it either
(no subject)
Date: 2019-01-12 05:41 am (UTC)8ut........
I will give you the same advice I think a friend would give to me.
Which is to have faith in the people that care a8out you.
They're making that choice, you know? And they're pro8a8ly making it 8ecause of who you are, not despite it.
(no subject)
Date: 2019-01-12 05:46 am (UTC)getting better about that
when my friends from the cram school found out what i was
well more found out who i was related to
and what power i had
they were pretty upset and i get it because the fire i got from my real father was something that caused a huge event called blue night when yukio and i were born
a lot of people died including people in their families
i thought they were gonna stay mad forever and that was it right?
but then they came and rescued me!
and when i tried to tell them i was gonna do everything i could not be like satan
suguro said that wasnt why he pissed
"was i the only one who thought we were friends" is what he said to me
so yeah
i have faith in them
way more than i have in myself but it makes me feel better about all my mistakes in the past
(no subject)
Date: 2019-01-13 01:37 am (UTC)You are really lucky. I hope you know that.
(no subject)
Date: 2019-01-14 01:23 am (UTC)i do
i wouldnt be here at all if not for them
i dunno if ill ever be able to show them all how much they mean to me but its a lot
i mean i care about my friends here too but shit i wouldnt have you all if not for them yknow?
(no subject)
Date: 2019-01-17 07:56 am (UTC)I really do.
8ut may8e work on 8eing less of a depressive sad sack.
You have told me a lot a8out your life, and the shit you've 8een through, and I'm not saying it's not heavy,
8ut if you already have friends who care a8out you this much, what exactly are you risking 8y putting yourself out there?
(no subject)
Date: 2019-01-18 04:03 am (UTC)jk
im trying there was just a lot of shit going on and its hard not to worry about whats gonna happen when i go back
i know im not really risking anything if i do but it doesnt stop me from being nervous about it
(no subject)
Date: 2019-01-18 07:03 am (UTC)Honestly, you want to know my real advice?
Get over it.
[ well, it's straightforward, at least. ]
(no subject)
Date: 2019-01-18 08:03 am (UTC)the 'i didn't have friends until i was 15 and im a social mess' part
the 'shiemi absolutely destroyed me' part
or the 'my brother is a giant asshole' part?
actually forget the last one im already oer that